At the age of 14 if you walked in my room, you would find my walls covered with black and white print ads torn from the pages of a magazine! I wanted to paint my walls black, lol, my mom wasn’t having it so I created my own way! There were a lot of Guess ads with Anna Nicole Smith everywhere and Michael Jordan had a series of Nike ads in Black and White. I became obsessed with magazines. Essence, Black Enterprise, Vogue, Elle, Allure and Cosmopolitan were all subscribed to. Editorials became my favorite. I was holding on to the dream of going to college to major in Architecture and Minor in Journalism. Yes, I was on TV but that wasn’t my dream, it was just what I had fun doing.
I am telling you this story about myself to share with you the power of manifestation. I know, I know, here I go again. Truthfully, I was eating lunch with my brother, Dallas 3 years ago and he said, “Right now, if you could be doing anything you want for a living, what would it be?” I laughed and said, “I want to write for a living full time and be a homeschool mom.” Fast forward 2 years. I am homeschooling and in November 2018, I was promoted from my part time gig at Fever Magazine to a full-time job as Assistant Editor! I manifested that shit and it all started with a teenage passion! I am a creative person and very eccentric. I am kinda like Lynn from Girlfriends, in the sense that doing just 1 thing forever is not my journey or my goal! Acting only did not fulfill me, I needed more. It is an awesome foundation that has given me a platform to stand on to achieve other things. I am not saying I quit acting, I’m saying I am more than an actress. I love setting goals and get a total high off achieving them. I also get a huge high watching others achieve their own goals. That is why I am sharing this story to encourage you to manifest your own reality! Good luck, you got this!
I’m a former child star and I have beat all odds. Society has put black women like me in a box. I’m supposed to be a victim with a sob story. Instead I am powerful, strong and vivacious.
I too have had life struggles and heartache but until now I didn’t feel it was necessary to share that part of my personal life.
I am ready to share now because I am tired of women giving up their dreams and falling victim.
I am an example of dreams coming true and when you believe in yourself what can happen. If you don’t believe in yourself, nobody else will. We need to rebuild our foundations as women and re-evaluate our self-worth, the way we evaluate our material possessions.
We live in a world that is so caught up with material possessions like cars, clothing, and shoes. We are slapped in the face every day with the worth of things we can’t take with us when we die. But many of us don’t know our own self-worth! But can spit out the price to those Christian Louboutin red bottom shoes we feel we need.
Women need to learn it is ok to put ourselves first. It is not a sin to take care of your needs and wants before you take care of anyone else’s. We have a natural instinct to nurture but fall short when it comes time to nurture ourselves.
I don’t know about you, but I am the most important person in my life. I know I have a daughter but if mommy doesn’t take care of her health, I can’t take care of her. Mentally and physically I have to nurture myself and my self-love, so I can be whole for her. Though I can’t control the things that go on around me I can control myself and my way of thinking. Positive is all I see because positive is all I want to see, and I have time for.
“I’m too wealthy for this!” is something I remind myself every time I find myself in some bullshit that doesn’t make sense. I’m 42 years old now I have to do things that make sense. By me saying this I am not taking about Wealth as an abundance of material possessions, but I am speaking of the valuable resources my life has given me. I have learned that I do not have to settle, and I do deserve the best. I have also learned that I can lead my life down certain paths, but I don’t control it. The Universe and God does, and every day of my life is a gift, a gift he gives me as his child. My time spent here on earth is not just about me but it’s about what I can do to better myself and what’s around me. I get everything I ask for. I believe you speak positive and positive things will happen. Try it for yourself say nothing negative for 30 days and see how your life changes. I dare you! I believe in Karma and what you put out into the world is what you get back.